` me. just me *

041106

dear God,

i have many things to confess. i know you already but i think saying them out will make me feel better. firstly, i have not been putting in my best to control my thoughts and focus on my A levels. i think i have been trying too hard to maintain friendships. i know that something is wrong. but i have no idea what exactly it is. i have tried to think through my actions time and time again.

dear God you know that today could have been celebrating my 30th month but i decided to give up. i need you to guide me through this. i'm sorry for being so weak and not standing firm with my decision. time and again i've broken down and felt so lost.

dear God after the past 13 years of spending my school days in holy grounds, these past two years i've spent have been really different. i dont knw how to express them in words. but i really wish i was still in those grounds.

thank you for being with me these past two months which were the most trying times so far. thank you for seeing me through my prelims, my rmg interview, my cambridge interview, my bmat papers and my gp exams. i really pray hard that you'll continue to watch over me and lead me through.

especially now that i'm sick. down with flu, cough, sore throat, headache, phlegm, please allow me to get well soon. my A levels are very important to me. i'll give my best for every paper. but i need this preparation time to concentrate on revision. i pray that you'll touch me with your healing hands so i'll recover faster.

i pray that you'll continue to be with those who are praying for ur help. once again, i thank you for your comforting presence and making feel better everytime i pray. especially when i'm nearly always crying when i pray. thank you God.

Amen

<3

xxx
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